There's no point in living if you can't feel the life

I know I may sound really dumb, but I think I get it. I think I understand why I'm here, why we act the way we do, the people around me.... I think I understand. It's not something I can effectively vocalize but instead something that must be sought out by the individual for his or her our knowledge. Here's what I can tell you, so far:

I am a vessel. My identity is none that we associate it as because my soul is merely a creation of God. All souls are on a journey back to their maker, and death in a traditional sense is false. Souls do not die, they are reborn to new vessels to continue their journey.

Jesus was not the "son of God" but instead at the end of his souls journey. His soul had returned to what it originally was- a divine figure. So in the sense that he is "God", his soul has returned to it's pure God-created form. He is what we should strive to become. He is a soul in it's Godlike form, which is why people see him as "Lord" when in essence, every soul has that potential.

Reincarnation is natural. Souls transfer vessels at death and birth, only through humans. Animals have souls, but they are different. For humans, past vessel's memories can very often affect our current life. Why we are drawn to something in particular, or have certain interests. We never DIE. At least our SOUL doesn't. Our physical form eventually deteriorates and returns to the Earth, but our soul transfers its energy to another person.

Evolution fits PERFECTLY with this. When God created this spherical planet to house his divine creations, he sought out to create a vessel that could house a soul and yet still be "free." Apes seemed to have the potential to grow into this being, and from this stemmed humans. (Again, I KNOW this sounds far-fetched and ridiculous but it just makes sense to me.... it fits) Through this our spiritual journey begins.

I think the position of the stars and planets play a huge role on how a person develops and evolves. I think it plays a greater role than any of us could ever imagine. Energy is transferred through the universe every minute of every day of every ANYTHING! And that plays a HUGE role in the person you become. I think soon people will begin to see what I mean. People in the past have derived great significance in astrology and astronomy, and I think just discarding their theories as "primitive" is foolish.

I believe in psychics. Ok, now I've probably lost you, right? I'm not saying I believe in those phony 1-800 numbers that say they can predict who you're star-crossed lover is or anyone who claims they predicted 9/11. I believe EVERYONE has the ability to reach into a chamber of the universe far beyond our comprehension. I'm saying there is an absolute truth. I think a man who was able to tap into this realm was Edgar Cayce (look him up). But I think there were many other people on this Earth who were able to do the same, maybe many who exist now. There is a place or entity out there that knows our past/present/future and knows it in a way where they aren't seen as separate places in time, but rather as one. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around THAT one.

Through meditation and self reflection and education I think we can learn so much more about our origins, who we are, and why things happen the way they do. I intend to pray, meditate, and learn as much as I can while I'm here on this planet. Eventually my soul will leave to another vessel, but until then I want to do everything possible to find the truth.

As the X-Files say- the truth is out there. Now I just need to find it!

I need to be less selfish
I need to want to learn for the sake of learning, not for personal gain
I need to be more like Jesus
I need to love more
I need to expel hate from my body
I want to help people
I want people to love each other
I hope I can find my salvation
I pray that the world finds its salvation.


If you're reading this and think I'm some quack, then that's fine. I don't really expect anyone else to understand because it's a personal journey. I pray that you find your own and can understand everything. Ha, I hope I can understand everything someday!

Love everyone, but most of all love your creator. Because in the end, we're all one. Loving thyself is loving thy neighbor, and loving thy neighbor is loving God.



I guess I'm done with this entry. God bless.